Hey, friends. It’s been a very, very long time since I’ve actually posted anything substantial… which is mostly because these last few months have been really wild! I’ve been in millions of weddings, finished a 10 week digital marketing class, changed jobs, the list goes on… and on and on. And since this blog is about inspiring transparency and openness, I feel I must be open about why I haven’t been writing lately, or participating in many online groups for sustainability bloggers.
Normally change doesn’t bother me. Normally, I actually seek out and embrace change as a sort of mini-adventure or challenge for myself. I usually find it thrilling and fun. However, over the last few months, there have been so many unexpected changes and unexpected twists and turns, some of which I can’t even talk about for legal reasons. And, I have to admit, these last few months have been hard. They’ve been really, really hard. The fact that I’ve had trouble adapting to all these changes has shaken me up even more, because I don’t recognise my own response, which is yet another change. So while everything around me has been feeling different and weird and confusing, I’ve also been trying to “get a hold of myself” and understand why I’m not responding in my usual optimistic way.
In short, both my external life and my internal life have both been unrecognisable, which is something I’ve never really experienced before.
All of this confusingness has left me feeling rather uninspired. It has felt a bit like I’m the proverbial hamster on the proverbial wheel, just trying to keep up with the speed of life without losing my footing and going flying off into the wood chips (we’ve all seen those YouTube videos. They’re hilarious for everyone except the hamster.)
However, yesterday was a bit different. I was listening to a Seth Godin (who is a marketing and business genius) interview, and he talked about “the dip” – or, the point at which most people would give up. It occurred to me that I was slowly giving up. I was slowly giving in to the negative thoughts and hopeless feelings, one at a time, and accepting a sub-par level of drive and happiness as normal. That is not the person I want to be, and it is not the type of life I want for myself.
So, I wanted to put that out there, because this is The Honest Root, after all. Is everything all better? Nope. Is everything still confusing and up in the air? A lot of it is, but at least I’m coming to terms with the fact that losing focus is part of life, and rediscovering inspiration is possible.
Have a great weekend, everyone.